I doubted God

Hi friends!

As many of you know, I am getting married (to the best guy in the world!!) in 10 days. We have made so many plans trying to merge the remainders of our two separate lives into one. Our biggest one was combining our two apartments into one.

Our plan since Fall 2017: May 1st I would be moving into our first apartment together, Nathan would remain in his apartment until his finals were over, and then go back to our hometown.

Y’all this did not happen. Not at all. I could not understand why God did not work this out for us. A pretty selfish statement.

Long story short- We were subleasing an apartment from a couple, but there were some complications which led us to not be able to move in May 1, 2,3… And on. I begged God to tell me what to do. I had limited time in the apartment I was in. God opened doors though. The leasing manager at our new apartment has been so gracious to us working around the clock trying to get us a place to live. He called the person over my apartment and got my time there extended by three days. God making moves again. My hope was raised again. Sunday came and we still could not get me moved into the apartment. The screening had me flagged in the criminal section (HA!), so they had to wait til Monday for a higher up manager to look at it and fix it. I had to be out of my apartment on Sunday. Monday came, 3:30 I planned on calling the new apartments again to see if anything had been finalized, but I had prepared myself to go home. I had warned work that I would need all of my shifts covered because I had no where to stay. So, I called and the manager told us, “Hannah, I have news for you.” in the most monotone voice ever, which was funny. We moved in like thirty minutes later. YAY!

In this process of waiting and waiting some more- I doubted God. I allowed my fleshly feelings to take over rather than listening to the Spirit inside of me telling me to be patient and that He had greater things in store for us. I knew that God would never fail me. I knew that He works all things out for my good.

Romans 8:28- And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Rather than remembering these promises, I chose sadness, doubt, and to try to understand the impossible. I relentlessly apologized to God for doubting Him. Who am I to doubt an all knowing God? The God who made the entire world, galaxy, who knows more about every person and molecule. How do I have any reasons to doubt Him? I don’t.

So, my point is that God often allows us to go through trials to build our faith, but He is not going to leave us to suffer. My Nana says “God is never later.” She’s right, He is never ever late. If we allow Him, He will work on our behalf. He will give us blessings that we never could have fathomed, such as half off of rent for the summer months!

 So friends, if you are going through struggles and trials right now, I encourage you to be patient, continuously commune with God, and never doubt that He is working on your behalf.
Proverbs 3:5-6- Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.
Love always,
Hannah 🙂

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