This week’s lesson I learned: find joy and God’s voice in every single aspect of life.
As many know lifting weights was and has been my “sport” since 9th or 10th grade. It’s what I have loved to do, it’s been my stress reliever, it’s what helped me grow to be confident, it is how I made many friends in high school, it has been so much to me. Over the past couple years I have been experiencing problems with my body not performing correctly and aching quite a bit. The chiropractor told me the disease that I have (no idea how to spell it, huge word). No big deal. I slowed down cardio. I later decreased the amount of weight I was lifting and put aside some goals knowing it was not safe for me to pursue them any more. As time has went on my body has only gotten worse. I have felt for a very long time that I should quit lifting before I destroy my body. It has been hard for me to accept this fact. Yesterday I finally talked to my boyfriend about all of this as he is my go to guy. He has been super awesome through this whole process. Before I spoke with him yesterday about what I have been feeling, he knew previously that my body was fast and continuously getting worse. I went from my max squat being 220 my senior year of high school to barely repping 65 pounds with my knees about to shatter. HUGE change. He has encouraged me to keep decreasing weight, to take many breaks and much more. So, yesterday when I presented to him the thought that God has laid on my heart I need to preserve my body and quit lifting he was so supportive of me. He helped me come up with ways to stay active, to be confident, to find new hobbies. (Thank you God for such a supportive guy!!)
I say all of this to present you with what God has laid on my heart for this new journey and lesson in my life.
God has created us all beautiful in our own skin. I do not have to have muscular definition to consider myself beautiful.
“You are beautiful for you are fearfully and wonderfully made.”
I am called to take care of my body. If I completely deplete my body now at such a young age, what will be left of it in my older years?
“For physical training is of some value, but godliness has value for all things, holding promise for both the present life and the life to come.”
-1 Timothy 4:8
I can find joy in anything. Joy is a choice. Joy does not just come and go. You choose joy no matter the situation. This summer I will be living with my Dad, step mom, and siblings. It will be new for us all. I am excited that God has granted us this opportunity. This brings me joy. I will get to keep the kids who are 6 and almost 3. I’d say there will be plenty of physical activity there. So, in a way God is still providing me with what I enjoy and also a new journey to embark.
It is hard for me to quit lifting weights. Just like it is hard for a senior in high school to play his last game on the football field, to walk off knowing he will never play another football game again. Yes, it is tough. But I CHOOSE joy. Why? Because God sees what I cannot see. HE sees healing in my future, he sees what comes with these new journeys, he has a plan far greater than my own. And for this, I am forever grateful.
Friends, I encourage you to accept hardships with open minds. Try to find the positive in them. Try to hear the Holy Spirits little whispers. Remember that He has a plan far greater than what we could ever imagine.
CHOOSE JOY FRIENDS! 🙂